As we grow older and reach that age where all we can do is remember, I hope we don’t regret how we live our life today.
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“Thank you for touching me. Some of the only moments worth living were spent with you. Not you especially, the collective you.”
—
Henry Rollins
“Memory and time, both immaterial, are rivers with no banks and constantly merging.”
— Etel Adnan, Night
“Not to know. Not to remember. With this one hope: That beyond the River Lethe, there is memory, healed.”
—Czeslaw Milosz, Memory And Memory
“Timing is irrelevant when two people are meant for each other. It’s what I once believed. But we met during a time when I was such a mess, when I still had so much to figure out. How could I have known how crucial every word, every action was or how losing you would be something I would always regret? If only you could have met me now, how different it would be. How much I have changed. How I have grown. I learned so much from all the mistakes I made with you. I just wish I had made them with someone else.”
— Lang Leav, “Regrets” Lullabies
Dare
Your hand is on the buckle of your belt
And my legs are already spread open
Yet another graceless night where I beguil you
You ask for my love, all of it you say
But how can I give my all when I have none
I don’t have anything for you
Except just hollow, intense despair
A void of indifference
If you stay long enough, you’ll be marooned in it
But you say you don’t care
Oh how I wish you did.
Kai
GUILT
When you are the only one awake in the room,
hearing your own breath rise and fall like wavering winds;
When peaceful sleep becomes too much to wish for,
And you try to muffle your worries under the pillow;
When you feel time vanish as the night grows old,
And each beat of your heart is a count down to doom;
You realise that sleepless nights are just a part of the price you’ve paid for your sins.
-Hira // guilt keeps me awake.
“There is nothing more vulnerable than caring for someone; it means not only giving your energy to that which is not you but also caring for that which is beyond or outside your control. Caring is anxious—to be full of care, to be careful, is to take care of things by becoming anxious about their future, where the future is embodied in the fragility of an object whose persistence matters. Becoming caring is not about becoming good or nice: people who have “being caring” as their ego ideal often act in quite uncaring ways in order to protect their good image of themselves. To care is not about letting an object go but holding on to an object by letting oneself go, giving oneself over to something that is not one’s own.”
— Sara Ahmed, The Promise of Happiness
Bucket list for lost souls
1. Do drugs with someone you love and loves you
2. Walk on a bridge in the middle of the night
3. Grab your drug of choice and head to another town. Visit their night life.
4. Form a deep connection with a total stranger, and never meet see them again.
5. Give a homeless person drugs AND money
“my mother holds my hand and reminds me that things can be loved into being that i am a testament of what love can create”
— pardis a.

